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Is where the Heart Hart is.
Where is yours?
Where am i right now?

The open road.
It's freeing.
Out there all alone.
Forever gonna roam.

Companionship is key.
I wish you'd find it in me.

Doll Face: An All Girl Band

Riigggghhhhttttt?
I can see it.
A band anyway.
Personally though I'd rather tour with dudes.
Music.
I'm convinced there's no greater art form that brings a group of people together for a common creative bond.
Moving.
A crowd bouncing to the same beat.
Swaying.
Feeling what's playing.
Pulsing through the bloodstream.
What do you have to say?
Put it to a danceable beat.
And people will follow.
They will listen and hear
Dollface, so pretty, but what's actually going on up there?
Think about it.
Beauty is fleeting.

The difference is...

In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different.

-Coco Chanel.

My favorite perfume is Versace Crystal Noir. It sounds more expensive than it really is. Department store perfume like any other smell, but this one mixed with my chemistry creates something special.

Today I drove to Waco and back. And signed my lease on a new apartment. I'm about to be there a lot more often and am genuinely excited about it. The first time in 12+ years I've truly lived by myself. In reality, really the first time ever because my senior year of college when I lived alone i was dating my boyfriend who became my husband of almost 7 years. He spent the night quite often. I'm excited about what the future holds. Art. Yoga. Travel. Rest... Yes!

SERIOUSLY!!!

a bit of a cop out to post a simple picture like this. but if nothing else, at least it's along the same lines as my post of yesterday. errrrr two days ago. sorry... travel! see! meet people. hang out! arts and crafts all day and night. inspire. play. all the while yogaing. obviously.

more thought provoking, story telling is on the way i promise you this. as today i scanned in at least 15 pieces of collage art, then went to happy hour at parkside with tiff taff... yep. that's about it.

Be the Art of Tease

it's unintentional that i continue to blog late. or just all together, as of late, skip days. if one anticipates these posts it could be assumed that i am teasing you.

though sincerely i am not. simply i've been busy. traveling. it's one of two (or three) of my favorite things. roadtrips are *magic*.  so much fun. no matter how many times one travels the same road, each and every adventure is different. something new to see that he/she/you/i didn't see before.

if you're the driver, it's a mission. if you're the passenger, it's a chance to sit back and relax. because personally from sun up to sun down i'm so always on the move, a trip in the car is the one opportunity where i'm guaranteed to sit X amount of time. tied down, if you will. allow your brain to follow. and this, in my opinion, is something (very) good. downtime.

my plan, maybe you've heard, maybe you haven't but i'm telling you now, is to buy a uhaul truck (not a trailer, not an airstream) and turn it into a mobile Harts N Crafts. then travel from small city to small city. big cities too. state fairs. college tailgate parties. to sorority houses. fraternity houses. christmas craft shows. festivals of all kinds. etc. THE OPTIONS ARE ENDLESS. to sell cute things out of the back of this craftmobile. documenting it all of course. and potentially being in a band and traveling with them at the same time too. this idea is *magic* in that all day we can sell crafty things and promote the show that we're playing later in the evening for all these new friends we've made along the way. a miniature celebration in the city. a win win for everyone involved. seriously. I AM NOT TEASING.

star light star bright

i feel somewhat uninspired.
maybe i should take this opportunity to sit and just be.
here's my post of yesterday and today combined.
hope you enjoy.
it's all that's in me.

In a perfect world...

What does a perfect world look like to you?
To me it changes pretty constantly.
Travel is always consistent.
The means to do it is what varies.
My idea right now is this...
A mobile Harts N Crafts gift shop by day
Touring musician by eve
Two sources of income and double the fan base
In one simple trip.
Adventure.
With a cozy dude who's cute.
And bandmates who are lighthearted, friendly, inspiring, creative.
Seems pretty easy.
I'm on the path to achieve it anyway.
Want to come with me?
There's plenty of room.
xoxoxxx!

The Grammys

When the Grammys were on, I was watching.
Mumford & Sons played.
Maybe you saw yesterday that I mixed with bits of their lyrics with my art.
More will follow.
I mentioned to my friend Ben,
"I hope that's you someday"
And I do.
And what if I played the keyboard in his band?
And won a Grammy too.
What if. What if. What if.
Someday comes soon.

ATrinity of Photography

a trilogy of photos. because i kept you waiting. 

and one to grow on. just like birthday spankings.

Priority #1 : Craft Time STAT

My days are whirlwinds.
I wake up and go nonstop all day.
Yesterday anyway.
Sunday. Sabbath. The day of rest.
Go figure that I'd do exactly the opposite.
Harts N Crafts in the early morning.
Flea market shopping. Errands. The gym.
More of the store.
It doesn't seem like much written out like this.
But it was.
And at 9pm I was too tired to go on.
And so I went to bed.
Without blogging.
But I didn't feel like doing it.
And this is supposed to be fun.
So I didn't. And slept instead.
Here's my post for yesterday. A memo to myself.
Make more time for crafting. Because it makes you happy.

shhhhh...

big is on the way.
around the corner chaos waits.
for ten years it's been building
coming.
a storm at sea's a brewing
is about to hit the fan.
what i feel
i know's for real.
the boat is built.
sail away with me.
room's a plenty
on the cruise ship of crafting
that can not sink.

Today, Friday February Fifteenth

It's actually Saturday the Sixteenth. So technically this is my post for yesterday. I didn't post one on the proper date but I fell asleep early and woke up early, at 3am to be exact. To the sound of DeVotchKa on pandora. Little Miss Sunshine. A nickname I've been given on occasion. Synchronicity. So here's my post.

My brain hurts from deep thinking today. Literally. I caused myself a headache cycling through plans of what's to come, how my future's going to play out. Has this ever happened to you? It's intense. I like it.

I have a plan. Now for the follow through. Execute. Life is best when driven. This commercial comes on pandora daily. I'm into it. It's true. It's advertising Fiats. I'll plug them here for at least adding an inspiring quote to their annoying ad. 

I drive a VW Jetta just like the one in the picture. It has electrical issues. I've known it since I got it but for the most part ignore them. Not that big a deal. It's a cute car anyway. With leather seats and dark tinted windows. I feel like a soccer mom in a sense. The specific car, featured here, I've seen driving around Austin twice now. Once in town and I couldn't believe it. A LEMON ON THE SIDE OF THE SAME CAR AS MINE! HE MUST KNOW TOO WHAT I AM DEALING WITH!! It was confirmation in a sense. That no, I'm not crazy and that yes, these cars do have issues. It was cute. The next time I saw it was on a roadtrip with a friend. He passed it so I could snap a pic. The driver ironically looks identical to my dad. 

UNIVERSE! WHAT'S IT ALL MEAN? tell me. please. 

XXX

Yesterday, the day before Valentine’s Day. A girl in the store is shopping around. Her name is Lauren. She was a Tri Delt at Baylor and is back in town as a choreographer. for Sing. But lives in Dallas now. Works at a dance studio as a hip hop dance teacher. How ideal is this? This is love in a sense. Living out her dream artistically.

The fairy tale part goes like this... That in college her best friend, Lauren too, was dating a dude. I forget his name but it isn’t important. He was so sweet. *amazing* in fact. So much so that the Lauren #1 wanted to know, does he have an older brother? Yes. But he’s 26 and a pilot in Chicago. James. This will never work out she assumed. Oh well. Too good to be true. And left it at that.

So as the story would go, the amazing boyfriend of Lauren #2 turns about to be a dick. Don’t they all? Imagine that.  Lauren #1 loves her best friend and feels the need to confront the dude  who turned her best friend into a sloppy mess. What exactly was he thinking? How could he be so selfish? Human nature. It happens. What’s up in ones head most of the time usually seems best. And so Lauren #1, now living in Dallas as a dance teacher, asks this bad boyfriend, also in Dallas, out to dinner. “Yes, I’ll meet you,” he says “but my brother’s in town on a layover so he’ll have to come with.”

***Did you just get chills? Because I did.***

They go to dinner. Lauren #1, Dickhead, and tagalong James. “Nice to meet you.” She shakes his hand and that’s that. Her perrogative is to right the wrong Dickhead has done to her best friend. It’s curious the shape she must have been in if Lauren felt the need to do this. Communication. Answers. What the hell was going on in your head? Lauren is a good person. You were *amazing* in the beginning. Where exactly was the disconnect. From her telling me the story, at the checkout in Harts N Crafts,  I could tell she’d never confronted someone quite like this. She said even that she shook her finger at him. *gasp* Heated. Passionate. Out of love for her best friend. They discussed. I don’t know what came of that specific evening except that evently Dickhead got his mind aligned, and he and Lauren dated again. Eventually now a year later they are married. Cute.

The love love love story I’m writing about though is of the pilot and Lauren #1. Time passed. She wasn’t looking for love  and he was based out of Chicago anyway. Distance. Too much for the young. Especially when both are charismatic- attractive, talented. Seriously. A pilot and a dance teacher. Yeah. One can assume the line of competition to date these two was 50 yards long at least. But because he had her number, out of the blue one day he called.  “I’m in Dallas on a layover. Can I take you to dinner?” From here, you can guess it, love steadily did bloom. The plane he was flying retired, opening his life up to a move. He chose Dallas and they started dating. 7 months later they were engaged. In 6 more months married. I joked with her “are you pregnant?” She laughed, “No. But eventually she wants a slew.” Me too I said. Two sets of twins.

And now today, Lauren #1 and Lauren #2, best friends and sorority sisters in college, share the  same last name. Married to brothers as fate would have it. She’s excited to raise their kids, live their lives, grow together. What’s most telling is the glow in her eyes, that this love is true. It’s deep. It’s real. A puzzle played out like a game of chess. Other decisions along the way could have easily been made. Lauren didn’t have to arrange that dinner date. Choices everyday shape the path we take. And we never know what could have been. But play the game. Love always wins. <3 <3 <3

This love thing...

Tell me.

What's it all about?
Give and get back.
Doesn't have to be so complex.
But I like it like that.

Why live in black and white...

...when you can live in color?

!!! WOW !!! ohhh kaayyyyy.

this picture cracks me up.
with the text...
girls can be dudes too.
it's not about manliness.
it's about ownership of oneself.
confidence.
yeah this is me. what are going to do about it?
deal.

do i say dude too much?
maybe. i don't care.

do you know about the podcast Uhh Yeah Dude?
if you answered no, you should.

hope your day's been happy. valentine's is two days away. the final countdown to my favorite holiday. <3 <3 <3

Flexibility is Key

The first step in making something happen is visualizing that it will. Making a physical something to stare at so that these ideas floating around in your brain all day are made more permanent somehow passing by the sight of your eyes. Does this make sense? It isn't really that technical though I feel in saying this, it's confused even me.

Things I desire to do. All of these.
Piano lessons- on the way.
Yoga school- in September.


Seems pretty simple and like a solid plan. In my mind anyway. Curious in between what life plans to throw my way. Time will tell and we will see. If life played out exactly as we plan, I should have been in Vietnam today.

#1 is fun. #2 don't do.

i'm on the road pretty much all the time. at some point i realized i really enjoy potty breaks on the side of the road. it's less trouble and more immediate than finding a convenient station.

it's unpredictable what you'll see. how the air will feel outside the climate controlled car. it's a moment to breathe. and relieve. stretch in nature. and then get back in and drive a bit more.

Happy Birthday Mama!!

TODAY'S MY MOM'S BIRTHDAY!!! I'm heading home to Abilene in just a bit. I woke up this morning at 5am, well rested from going to bed early and was already packed. It has allowed me a bit of free time to shower, ready myself and work on art. This is an ideal way to start a day! Here's what I came up with. MY FAMILY! They are adorable and I love them so much. How could you not?

Domination

I want to dominate the boutique business. I honestly know I have a chance. Harts N Crafts others want. This tattoo, I have a line 10 people deep who'd be willing to get it on their body. More will follow. I know.They've expressed interest. Given me business cards and phone numbers. All I need now is to slow down and focus and follow through.

Desire is a sense of longing for a person or object or hoping for an outcome. The same sense is expressed by emotions such as "craving" or "hankering". When a person desires something or someone, their sense of longing is excited by the enjoyment or thought of the item or peson, and they want to take actions to obtain their goal. The motivational aspect of desire has long been note by philosophers; Hobbes asserted that human desire is the fundamental motivation of all human interaction.

This desire bracelet is symbolic in my yoga practice. We get new bracelets as milestones for going to class. I'd gone to 50 classes to earn this one and it reminds us of the internal desire we're creating for our consistent yoga practice. It's linked to the second chakra of the body and corresponds to relationships, sexuality, intimacy and taste. The related element is water. I feel very connected to this though i HAVE moved onto my 75 class wristband. You're awarded wristbands through all 7 chakras leading up to 500 classes, the chakra of Union. Bringing you enlightenment and heigthened awareness of body and mind. I'm excited to earn this wristband eventually and in my free time instruct yoga for cash money!

Food vs. Sex

Both are pleasures. I had a realization after exactly ONE person looked at Dairy Queen post. hahahah. What people? You don't like signs on the side of the road. Same thing with food. Ok. Yeah Alicia I see that's a burger. Things like this aren't as visually pleasing as say... LEGS! yes. legs it is. I'm halfway tempted to post a pic of KFC drumsticks. But alas don't have one. I was going to post a picture of an omelette too saying that I'm the queen of making them (which is true) but I hadn't done art on the picture I'd taken, and seriously. A stand alone omelette doesn't have much visual appeal.

So instead, here's a pic of a bag of tuna. How is everything linked you ask? The most bizarre omelette I've concocted to date is one stuffed with tuna. Creatively speaking it was a supremely heightened phase of life and I was like "this is odd and curious but strangely enough feels totally natural and right, so hell yes I'm gonna try it." It was alright. High protein for sure! Which I think is probably what I was going for...

And all in good fun, who doesn't like a cute pussy cat who in turn, too, likes tuna. The mind. It's magic when well used. 

Droppin' the Ball...

Eesh! It's been three days since I posted on my blog. Admittedly I've been distracted by boys again. I've exhausted myself really. And all over dudes that eh, just don't do it for me. To the extent that I'm removing myself from OkCupid YET AGAIN. I'm keeping my account open to continue to get messages (hypothetically) and when I jump back on (yet again) I can slew through them easily. hm. yeah. Boy who is visually and mentally and physically satisfying COME TO ME. NOW. please...

To go along with this blog post, instead of a picture i'm posting a video. 

That's a first. This time comes around for everything though i suppose.

http://youtu.be/O_9sQrrqi0Y

My friend Nick sent it to me the other day when I was kinda feeling down. 

We chatted back and forth a bit and our conversation ended with me buying a ticket to see the Dalai Lama with him in New Orleans. Should be uplifting for sure. I hear he's funny. It'd come easily, I'd imagine, if one is as wise as the Dalai Lama.  

food + emotions = confusion

recently i learned i really love cooking.
and i can do it decently well.

ice cream is my weakness.

and snacking as a hobby is no bueno.

but when one workouts enough she can eat pretty much anything guiltlessly.

hot yoga is the answer to everything.

i'd eat a tossed salad any day.

not necessarily deprivation of food, though in the short term i've been told the benefits of a fast can be amazing, euphoric even. clearer eyes, a clearer mind, the ability to focus on more important things than what the next meal is going to be. everything in moderation maybe, because anorexia solves nothing. been there. done that. through high school and college. it's a control thing. i lost 100lbs that way. so something good did come out of it maybe, but there are healthier ways that don't slow down your brain, make your hair fall out, breath stink. i'm glad to be over that phase.

deprivation of other things, maybe more specifically boys, is what i'm referring to here. it fuels my mind anyway, to have a taste of what i like and then for it to be taken away. in talking to my roommate meredith last night, we pinpointed that i'm very much into what's unattainable, and in consequence not having it is what drives my artwork. proof in point. this photo book i'm working on. i love to be inspired to produce creative things. so in the end i can't fault the guys who, for whatever reason, decide they don't want to move forward with relating to me. what's meant to be will be. and in the end, we'll all bee happy. <3

Do whatttttt...

Care packages are interesting.Taking the time to send something in the mail. Crazy! Unheard of. In an era of go go go. And a lack of adequate help at the post office at that. It's cute though. And an adorable way to show someone you care. Send me one, if you dare. And i'll send you one back.

---> Alicia Hart
c/o Harts N Crafts
1125 S. 8th St.
Waco, TX 76706

love is #1

love comes in all different shapes and forms. love to me is about caring. to be honest, in some sense mine is fleeting. the intensity in which i love  when i'm fixated on something or someone is too much to remain constant for eternity. maybe it's just that i've never experienced this love, care, attention reciprocated. and it's like a well. a well of emotion. if one gives X amount, X amount needs to be filled. it's an easy balance if, in a partner, you can solve this equation. the give and take of a healthy relationship. some might question then if my love is real. if when one minute it's as intense as anyone's ever felt and the next, gone, as if nothing is there. it is. if in my heart if i've ever had this gushy overwhelming emotion toward you, i will always care. it's unconditional. girls. i'm always harder on. guys, for the most part, could do no wrong. it probably isn't healthy, but right now my hormones are running wild.

On the topic of birthdays...

A few more things.
This is the first time I've posted more than once for a specific day.
That's allowed right?
Who am I asking exactly?
This is my blog after all and the rules i make, so here ya go...

 as an "obsessive twat" Scorpio, I feel I have a right to post this.
Does your "fuckin horoscope" ring true for you too??

BOOBS! Cake. 

Both are cool. 

But the second is my more favorite.

And finally, hay! Do you know someone born today? Is it YOUR birthday my blog reader? In reading this horoscope and those of other Aquarius, it makes me wonder if with Scorpios they are a perfect fit. It would maybe make sense. That the month we Scorpios were conceived, the babies who were born are in tune with us in some way. A thought anyway. My birthday is November 15. I like to think maybe I was a Valentine's Day baby. <3 <3 <3

birthdays are my favorite holiday.

mostly because i love the art of gift wrapping.
but too that it's the celebration of a life existing.

let me muse you.

Muse

1. Greek Mythology Any of the nine daughters of Mnemosyne and Zeus, each of whom presided over a different art or science.

2. a guiding spirit, a source of inspiration

3. a poet.

... then in like 5 years, if it works out well, lets you and me make millions of babies...